First match of the day, after a few days off from the game, and I don’t even get off to a good start.
I shoot the back of a British tank’s turret, enough to eliminate the crew, and I get assistance. I move forward to look for more enemies, and a BMPT fires at me from behind cover, using its cannons to destroy one of my tracks. My chassis rotates 90 degrees due to the damage, and the BMPT fires one of its missiles to finish me off.
This is the second time this has happened to me, and I don’t stand a chance. I’m tired of this vehicle, of people saying it’s not broken or meta, and of Gaijin not doing anything about it. While Gaijin doesn’t have the courage to face the music, the incredulous community continues to feed its pride by paying for unnecessary premium vehicles.
I try to be a good player and a good person, but things like this make it difficult. I’m trying not to become a toxic player again, since I was one, and I’m trying to be healthier, but sometimes it gets difficult, very difficult for me. I invested over 3,000 hours in the game and a considerable amount of money, as far as I’m concerned, but looking back, I think it was one of the worst decisions of my life.
I wanted to go back to the game because I felt I needed that dose of “strategic gameplay” or that feeling that only War Thunder can give you, but seeing the consequences, I don’t think it’s worth it. Frustration and anger were the worst things for me, and if I have the option to avoid it, I will.
I always say I’m going to quit playing, but I always end up coming back. At least for the occasional match, but seeing that things aren’t changing, my decision is about to become permanent. I’m tired of not enjoying a game that doesn’t value you at all.
I admit I’m a sore loser, but I don’t want consolation, and maybe I don’t deserve it. Do you want to insult me? Go ahead, make fun of my lack of skill, but I won’t bother continuing this.
As a side note, I’ll just mention that before I came back I had the game uninstalled, but now I won’t bother having it taking up unnecessary space on my storage.
